Sometimes it Hurts...

It’s a weird feeling I have been having lately. This semester back at UNCG has been one of my best yet. Yet one of the most difficult as well. I really feel at home here in Greensboro and I not only do I serve an awesome God, have wonderful friends in my life, but I have also met a really awesome guy. I really like being in Greensboro. I want to spend the next year and a half I have here enjoying every moment. Having as much fun as possible. Reminding myself that school does not have to be number one or even number two in life. That passing is important but A+’s not so much.

I said at the beginning of this semester that I would focus on having fun. And have fun I have done. But I have also had a lot of schoolwork to get done. Two speaking intensives and a writing intensive is not joke. Oh yeah, and I’m learning Spanish (doing pretty well at it I must say), and I’m a Peer Leader and I’m a Think Tank participant. Now, with barely any time left in the semester, I do feel like I slightly over-committed myself on the school side of things, and I’m looking at how to go forward into next semester, but that is another conversation for another day.

But the main thing that has made this semester difficult is missing. Missing England. Missing Seattle. Missing friends. Missing family. Missing traveling. I want to do all of these things. But I want to be here. I want to be in Greensboro. How do I explain that to people? I do I even make sense of it on my own? Right now at this moment I miss England so terribly much. I miss Ella, Amy and Kayleigh, the wonderful girls I became friends with over there. But I also think about this afternoon when I got to spend time with Kenny. And this evening when I got to spend time with Amanda. Those times were awesome and I really enjoyed them and I know if I left, I’d miss these things just as much.

I guess life is all about finding a balance of all the things you enjoy and love. But why are all of the places, people and things I love so far away from each other?

Having said that it’s such a blessing that I have had all of these experiences to live in different time zones, and to see different things and I would not trade them for the world. Even if I miss them so much I hurt.

I just want to focus on living in today and having as much fun as possible.